Hi, everyone! It has been quite a few days since we last talked. I had lots of typing to do at my internship and for school this week. My fingers were pretty sore and my eyes needed a break from the computer screen. Due to all the time I’ve been spending cooped up in an office over the last three weeks, my attitude towards exercise has changed significantly. I have always overanalyzed everything; this is probably how I decided to become a therapist. Lately, my mind has been working overtime (not just its usual full-time job of overanalysis. It’s like I got a promotion, haha!). I even waste time merely thinking about going to the gym or running through the park, weighing the pros and cons, and decide more often than not that I do not want to go. My mind has often blocked my path in life. Whenever I want to try something new, my brain questions every little aspect of whatever it is. I have learned to challenge those thoughts, but sometimes I slip back into the habit of questioning myself for so long that I run out of time. Thinking is obviously necessary, but the way I think sometimes is detrimental to my growth as a person. I almost failed to go for a run on Tuesday, but forced myself to lace up my shoes. I am so happy that I did. I know I said that I hated fall, but there is nothing quite as beautiful as fall running 🙂I constantly overwhelm myself with the things I think I “have to” do. They get in the way of what I want to do. On Wednesday, I had most of the day off, Andy was over, and we decided to enjoy our day together. I had a class to prepare for that evening, but I decided that I was prepared enough and would rather get outside and live my life. It is starting to dawn on me that you truly only do live once. I am working two jobs and going to school this year, but that doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy the times when I’m actually not working my butt off.
By “enjoy” I mean go out to lunch for Thai food 🙂
When I think about the stress I’m under, I feel completely overwhelmed. However, when I throw myself into the internship, running, or homework assignments, I realize that it is all going to be just fine. I sat in my car in the gym parking lot debating whether or not I wanted to work out last night. I actually started the engine and decided to exercise “tomorrow” instead. Not even two seconds later, I cut the engine, got out of the car, and marched into the locker room. You guys… there is no tomorrow. Exercise makes me happy; it always has. For some (SUPER WEIRD) reason I’ve been overthinking it and then running out of time to actually hit the treadmill. Thinking, on the other hand, does not make me happy. It doesn’t usually help me in any way at all. Not that we shouldn’t think, but you know what I mean 😉 This Runner’s World quote sums up exactly what I’m trying to say here:
I’m ready to turn off my brain, get out there, and experience life/get fit/live my dreams! My new goal is to lace up my shoes and get outside, without any thought at all – even if it’s only for one mile. It’s better than zero miles 🙂
How do you shut off your brain? (I need advice, HAHA)
What is your favorite Thai dish?